I don’t know what to say. Or do. I feel ready to fly apart. All I want to do is wrap my arms around myself and rock back and forth. My mind is about to explode and I feel like I can’t tell anyone anything. I was wrong and I shouldn’t have let my curiosity get the best of me. I want to scream but I’m afraid that will make me lose it even more. Why couldn’t I just leave it all alone?? Now I can’t go back to sweet oblivion. I’m choking on my heart.
Crap a thousand, thousand times. . . .