losing it

I don’t know what to say.  Or do.  I feel ready to fly apart.  All I want to do is wrap my arms around myself and rock back and forth.  My mind is about to explode and I feel like I can’t tell anyone anything.  I was wrong and I shouldn’t have let my curiosity get the best of me.  I want to scream but I’m afraid that will make me lose it even more.  Why couldn’t I just leave it all alone??  Now I can’t go back to sweet oblivion.  I’m choking on my heart.

Crap a thousand, thousand times. . . .

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3 thoughts on “losing it

  1. Thanks, Haley. :) I’m considerably better now; thanks for your comment, I find it’s easier to bear heavy burdens when you know you’re not alone.

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