About a month ago I was in a meeting with one of my coworkers and she asked me if I had ever just sat still, doing nothing at all, enjoying creation and the God who made it. While I have done that, it has been a long time since such a thing occurred. This summer has been absolutely insane, I get up at 5:30am every weekday and don’t get home until 5:30pm at the earliest. I’m exhausted all the time and I feel like everything is just piling up on top of me. Whenever I think I’m making progress, more responsibilities seem to accumulate. I had meant to make this post back when I had the conversation that inspired it, but as a testament to how busy I’ve been, I haven’t been able to really sit down and jot it down until now.
A month from today I will be moving out of my parent’s house and into my new house close to the university I’ll be attending for the next year and a half or so. I’m super excited but also more and more nervous as the time draws nearer. It’ll be so difficult to say goodbye to all the people I’ve grown close to this year. I cannot believe the summer is already so close to the end, that I really will be leaving this place that I’ve known for almost all my life. It’s a bittersweet feeling, this growing up business. I want to hang on to all that has inspired me, to remember all the little details of my life that have given me joy. Leaving everything familiar behind and moving on to something completely new is such an exhilarating feeling.
In the midst of all that’s filled my mind, I want to have moments of clarity, peace and quiet. I must not neglect myself and my own needs, however trivial I might think they are most of the time. I need moments to get away from all that bogs me down, to allow myself to be still and enjoy now. And now. And now.